Gelatin

Digiperm Result

2008-08-16T06:52:00.002+08:00

I think it turned out pretty nice. I can't pose for sh*t! It's hard to have pictures taken when it's just a 5 year old who pretty much points and shoots that takes it. Hahaha! Oh well! Someone tell me what products to buy to boost the curls!!!! PLEASE!

Digiperm Step 3

2008-08-15T12:26:00.002+08:00

they did 2 other things before doing this to me so this is step 3. it's hard to move while on the machine. :) hay! i hope this is worth it.

Dana singing Rollin last year

2008-08-14T08:55:00.002+08:00

I was bored. Youtube galore. Found this in my files. Hehe

Listen by Nina

2008-08-14T08:49:00.000+08:00

Wala lang, feel ko lang:

Randoms

2008-07-24T07:38:00.002+08:00

I love Macintosh. I am never going back to Windows. I never have to worry about viruses or reformatting my laptop over and over.

I miss my friends in Canada: my godson Camron is so big now.

For someone who doesn't have to go to the office, it seems that I still lack time. I was on my bed getting ready to sleep last night wondering where my time goes. I can't think of a time where I'm just sitting ding nothing. I miss doing nothing.

I love going to the gym. The sweating. The pain. The people I meet: there are groups of elderly ladies who always go together. It's nice to see them all having fun and making the best out of their lives. They don't sit home and watch television. They stay active. They make friends.

Rose and Arlyn, regular BodyCombat ladies introduced themselves to me yesterday. They're both so nice. There was also a guy with them, I didn't get his name. I'll ask him when I see him next time.

Why does it have to take a really good film to get me to make time to watch at the cinema? I saw Dark Knight. Freaking good! Everything else I settle on downloading off the internet. I used to love going to the cinema. What happened to me?

I also used to love going out every weekend to hang in a coffee shop, sometimes drink. Now I just love staying home watching dvds and drinking my "barako" coffee.

I love my Samsung Armani but holy fudge! It's so hard to use.

I love watching Dana sleep. Especially those times when she smiles in her sleep. She looks so happy and peaceful. I'm doing my job right.

I love friendly people. May found me through multiply. She just sent me a message telling me that she too is a single mom and I just knew I want to be friends with her. Not just because of the single mom thing, but her ability to reach out even through the internet.

I want to learn how to cook more dishes. Something "kiddie fancy" for weekends with Dana.

Driving in Manila is a bitch.

I have this cousin who I absolutely adore. He is sincerely sweet and I feel bad that there is no one there in his house who thinks of him and what's good for him. The mother of his child keeps leaving their son with him going who knows where! I like when he visits me at home and stays over. I get to take care of him and laugh at all his stupid jokes.

I want so badly to be 100 percent healthy. I don't want to get sick ever again.

Lakawon Island

2008-07-21T14:07:00.003+08:00

,br>image courtesy of evolution, thank you!

Lakawon Island, Negros Occidental

SOON!!!! Yay!

Fitness First

2008-07-14T11:40:00.005+08:00

I've been going to Fitness First for 3 weeks now. Religiously. Everyday! so far I've only been to the one at Metro East, Megamall and Wynsum. The wynsum branch, compared to the other two IS GREAT! Less people. Less scrambling over to be the first to enter the group class rooms so you can get a mat or a ball. Cozier and better views.

Diba! For those who think nagpapasexy ako, NOPE. I work out to DE-STRESS because I have been so damn stressed lately and the gym has helped a lot. I've heard many people say FF is expensive, you know for me it's quite a good investment. I mean, dahil nga mahal kahit tinatamad ka pipilitin mo makapag gym just so you get your money's worth and you feel better after a work out. Even the pain after lifting weights is inspiring! I love ther Les Mills programs and RETRO!! Woohoo!

It has been WAAAAAAYY TOO LONG!

2008-07-09T08:21:00.008+08:00

After some health problems, I am now back. I need to updatethe layout. I need to post. I just need to do a lot. First some pictures:

me driving

,br>right after getting off the car at quezon

my baby so dark in quezon

bored

dana and i playing around

I'm too lazy to upload everything else. So what's been up? I quit AutoMujeresPinas, I had no time for them anymore, then issues came up from out of nowhere and now I just don't wanna be in that club. I'd rather not elaborate further on what happened there but leave me a comment with your e-mail if you wanna read the blog where I "explain" things.

Dana still loves school. I go to Fitness First now. Anyone wanna come with? I still have 2 guest passes! :) I love their GroupX programs! The instructors really make sure you work your butt off and I sweat profusely everytime I take one.

Oooooohhhh! I've got a new cellphone!

Sexy huh? Samsung P520 Armani it's called and I love it but I hate using it! It's so hard coz it's just fully touch screen! But still, I've never seen anything as sexy as this! Hahaha!

I'm gonna work on a new layout for now. I'll be back!

Surfing in San Juan, La Union

2008-01-16T15:15:00.000+08:00

So, last January 12 and 13 which was a Saturday and Sunday, we went to San Juan, La Union to learn how to surf. We were supposed to leave January 11 but we woke up too late so we postponed. I thought we wouldn't be able to go anymore but we did, good stuff! We drove Kaydee, who did wonderfully, as in nakakasabay ako sa speed ng mga Mazda 3 at Honda Civic na 1.8 ang mga engines when I have a mere 1.0 engine. Odiba ang cool? Hehe!

We stayed at SeBay Resort, 1350 per night yung aircon room nila, private toilet, cable tv (that we barely turned on, HELLO! We were at the beach!). Ok naman for the price. We got there around 10am, nag lounge muna kami, then lunch, then went swimming. At first I didn't wanna go through with the surfing anymore, takot kasi ako e pero I decided to rent a board and try it on my own na muna. Hay naku! That was the funniest, most embarrasing sport I have ever tried! I kept falling off my board! Pero nakakatawa lang siya kahit na mukha akong tanga dun within people who were so good at it. I TRIED to surf for 2 hours and gave up only coz I got tired na. Nakakahingal siya ha! Paddle to the deep end, wait for the wave, paddle when wave is coming to gain speed, try to stand on the board, FALL OFF! Again and again yan!

The next day I decided to take a lesson na. Ayun! I MANAGED TO STAND ON MY BOARD AND RIDE THE WAVE! My instructor even said that I did something called "walling" whatever that is. Basta masaya siya sobra! It's too bad I didn't get pictures, no one around to take them e kasi we were all at the beach having too much fun making a fool out of ourselves. Oh yeah, Dana's first attempt to surf, SHE DID IT RIGHT AWAY! As in first try pa lang nakatayo na siya at naride niya yung wave! Galing talaga ng baby ko! Going home sucked! I wish I could have stayed longer. It was relaxing. I will so go back there very soon!

Oh, the only drawback is that the day after you surf and surf for the first time, you'll have major body pain. Mine just subsided this morning. But it's worth it, really! Lika surfing tayo!

Pictures

2008-01-03T13:19:00.000+08:00

dana st starbucks

my sony ericsson p1i

dana on the plane

dana and i in our room in boracay

I'm in Netopia at Megamall right now. Dana was bored at home so I brought her to to go play at Dave's Fun House, she loves it there. Sa 8 pa sila mag back to school, I've ran out of dvds for her na. On the upside, she loves the Spice Girls concert dvd so she keeps watching that and dancing around copying the girls. She looks so cute when she does it. I love that she honestly loves the Spice Girls. Hindi yung tulad ng ibang bata na sinasabing gusto dahil lang gusto ng mommy or daddy nila. Ako na nga yung nagsasawa kasi kahit sa car gusto niya yung Spice Girls cd pa din ang nakasaksak sa cd player. I'm rasing such a wonderfully intelligent girl, I couldn't ask for more!

Anyway, nothing interesting is happening sa life ko kaya yan na muna. Hope you like the pictures! Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays!

2007-12-28T12:47:00.000+08:00

Eventhough I barely blog, Sandra still remembers me. Such a sweetie talaga! Hay!

For the first time in a very long time, on December 25th, I just spent the day in bed watching movies from both HBO and some new dvds. I finally got my lazy day! Yay for me! Dana was very happy with all of her gifts. Ayun, hindi ako pinapansin, laro lang siya ng laro. Good for her. I'm thinking of getting her a dog kasi nakakaawa siya when I see her putting a pretend leash on her Pluto stuff toy and pulls him around. I'm sure she'll take good care of the dog naman because she is just so responsible!

I'd like to share some pictures from this year bago pa matapos ang taon.

dana and i at mango ray restaurant, boracay island

jollibee san pedro, laguna, my club's outreach day

teej with dana and iya, outreach

I have to organize the other photos, grabe ang gulo gulo ng flickr account ko!

Sige na muna guys, I'm looking for applications and games for my P1i pa eh. Mwah!

2007-12-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

I know an entry has been long overdue. Life is hectic. Between Dana and her school exams and activities plus household chores, I barely have any time for myself. Oh wait!

I GOT THE NEW SPICE GIRLS CD! GREATEST HITS!

Hehehe, it's not like I don't have all of the songs already but hey, I'm a huge fan so I had to buy it.

Anyway, back to my busy days, Dana's Christmas party was earlier today, vacation starts now! I wonder how I can occupy her time during the next 18 days? But knowing her, she'll be occupying my days with hugging and laughing. She gave all her teachers presents (sipsip!) and she got a toy cooking set from her Secret Santa. She's not too happy with it because she alreeady has a nice, expensive, big one at home in her room. Hahaha. I think I spoil her sometimes.

We're going to lunch right about now. I just went online to say a quick hello to everyone. Oh hey! I've got my P1i, it's great!

Rebellion

2007-11-30T12:28:00.000+08:00

As promised, the cobra that caused such a panic in my subdivision, SCARY!!!

Everyone in the Philippines know by now what happened yesterday sa Makati. Ay naku! Lahat sila mali! Trillanes and company were wrong because if they want to make a difference, sana yung mas magandang way na, MAG-ISIP NAMAN KAYO! He kept stressing how he got 11 million plus votes nung election and those 11 million plus people should be heard. Trillanes, pinahiya mo yung 11 million plus people na yun sa ginawa ninyo! I don't think Filipinos want violence to occur so mali ka dun.

Yan naman si GLORIA MACAPAGAL ARROYO, I refuse to call her president because she SO does not deserve it, lahat na ng curse words gusto ko sabihin sa'yo! In fairness kina Trillanes, lahat ng tao sa Manila Pen pinalabas nila at natira lang ang mga media who were doing their jobs lang. So unlike the Oakwood mutiny so SUPER SOBRANG OA ang action niyo against them. Is that how scared you are of Trillanes and gang that you would resort to that? Ang bobo ng mga alagad mo! Manang mana sa'yo! Punished to the full extent of the law? May curfew pa! Martial law here we come...DIE GLORIA! DIE!

Sorry kung may mga pro Gloria diyan na naoffend ko. My blog, my opinions. I'll respect yours, please respect mine.

Earthquake

2007-11-29T12:53:00.000+08:00

I was resting the other day when I felt the earthquake. At first I thought that I was so dizzy lang kaya parang my house is moving. So I stayed on the sofa, when I looked outside nakita ko gumagalaw yung mga sampay sa labas. Hahaha. I still thought I wasn't feeling well lang. Biglang nag text sa akin si Rose asking if I'm okay. So I replied: "Wat do u min? Lumindol b? Mlks b jan?" Ayun, I must have sounded stupid. Oh well, talaga namang masama pakiramdam ko eh. Super busy kasi and the first moment I get to get some rest lumindol pa. Ang saya diba!

Later on that day, may nakitang cobra sa subdivision namin. The neighbors were frantic, hindi ko alam kung sino ang pumatay dun sa snake. Scary ah! I took a picture of it na hindi ko pa naupload. Pukpok yung head niya, adult snake na siya. How brave naman the people who went near it to kill it. It's a poisonous snake! I'll upload the picture later and post it here.

So sorry napaka-walang kwenta kong blogger ngayon.

My Heritage

2007-11-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

I found these in my email. I forgot I had them. I was so bored then huh? Tapos ngayon I barely have time for myself. Times have changed. Haha.

One More Chance to be Enchanted...

2007-11-27T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. I couldn't think of a title for this entry so pinagsama ko yung 2 movies that I recently saw.

November 23, 2007 at Gateway Mall: One More Chance starring John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo. ANG GANDA!!! I laughed hard, cried even harder. Hay grabe! Those 2 may actually have a chance to be together in real life. Their chemistry is undeniable sa movie na ito compared to their former movies. Talagang super comfortable na sila sa isa't isa. I have to say that for the very first time, fan ako ng isang love team.

November 25, 2007 at Robinsons Metro East: Enchanted starring Amy Adams and McDreamy, hehehe. Dana has been bugging me to see this ever since she saw it in a commercial sa tv so I took her. The girl is surprisingly good. I mean, she convinced me that she's an innocent, wide-eyed girl talaga who only sees the good in everything. It had dull moments though. Disney shouldn't be emphasizing the love story too much, the kids want action. Bored na bored si Dana nung part na walang habulan, kantahan or fights that she was standing on her seat and dancing around to amuse herself. Ay! There was a song there that I soooooo want to download so to anyone who has it, PLEASE let me know. So Close by John Mclaughlin. Ang ganda ng boses niya grabeeeeeeeee!!!

Ayan nakapagblog na din ako sa wakas. I'm sorry I've been so busy. December 2 na outreach namin, that's on Sunday na. After that siguro I'll have more time here. I'm getting the Sony Ericsson P1i over the weekend. Hay! Oo nga pala, nag earthquake kanina lang ah! Everyone okay? I heard malakas sa bandang Pasig and Mandaluyong daw? At least yung inaanticipate na storm hindi dumaan sa Metro Manila. Condolence though sa mga namatayan nung bagyo. Tsk tsk.

I miss blogging!

2007-11-14T14:04:00.000+08:00

Eh paano naman kaya ako makakapagblog lagi kung lagi wala sa house? I'm exhausted na. Ay, yan nga pala, baka there are Volkswagen enthusiasts out there, they have a car show on December 2.

Metrobank SUCKS! I deposited money sa account ko sa Metrobank Antipolo, dito ko sa Marikina dineposit. They charge a fee dahil out of Manila daw! Helllllleeeeerrrr! I can drive from Ortigas to Antipolo church in 15 freaking minutes! Wala lang akong time kaya hindi ko magawa. Ay, so disappointing talaga seeing as yung iba ko banks (Banco De Oro and BPI) kahit saan ka magdeposit no problem. Grabe ha! When I go to Antipolo I'm gonna close that account na dahil their policy is stupid!

Ano ba yan! Minsan na lang ako mag blog ganyan pa content. Sorry po, talagang inis lang ako sa banko na yan. Anyhoo, have to go again.

It's been a while

2007-11-08T12:36:00.000+08:00

Ay grabe! Sobrang naging hectic ang schedule ng lola niyo! Hahaha. I've been made vice president of our car club kaya ayun todo kayod ako para naman hindi nila isipin na mali sila ng pagpili sa akin. Oh yeah, share ko yung bagong stickers na makikita niyo sa cars that belong to our club.

So, what do you guys prefer? Pink on black, pink on white or gold on black? I voted for the pink on white with minor alterations, gusto ko sana yung border gawing black saka yung car name (baby goddess) black din. Kasi yun ang pinakabagay dun sa back sticker, which is the original logo ng club namin. The gold on black is great, yun ang love ko kaya lang hindi ko alam kung pwede pa kami magbago ng team colors e.

Sorry if I haven't updated or blog hopped in a while talaga ha! Bawi ako kapag maluwag na ang schedule ko. Hehehe

Happy Halloween!

2007-10-31T11:31:00.000+08:00

Lookee what my lil sis Sandra gave me! Diba ang galing? Hay, wish ko lang may mga ganyang talents ako diba? Hehe.

Anyhoo, halloween na. Kailan pa ba nauso halloween dito? Before ako umalis for Canada solemn lang dito pag ganitong panahon. Tapos ngayon may trick or treat na din! I remember the first time I went trick or treating, nandun kami sa Edmonton pa nun. I went as Little Red Riding Hood with my cousins. There was this one mansion that we went to where you had to go through the house (they converted it to a haunted house, as in the whole family and staff were dressed as monsters) before you could get your treat. So my cousins and I went through it, we were screaming from start to finish. Pero hello naman! They gave each of us a basket of goodies with Godiva chocolates, the largest size chips, packs of candies and soke softdrinks in a can. Talagang all out sila! Kaya masasayang mga paos kami nun!

Si Dana, she went as a bumblebee her first time, 1 month old pa lang. Eh siyempre si mommy niya ang kumain ng mga candies niya! Cuuuuute niya nun! Hay!

So yan na muna. Happy birthday to Duday! Thank you Sandra for the gift, I love it!

D' Gathering

2007-10-30T10:15:00.000+08:00

Andami naming ginawa nung Saturday.

First, we went to Octobugfest sa Golden Valley, Marikina around 3pm. I have some friends there kaya ako pumunta. Saw a cool yellow convertible Karmann Ghia, lady driven. Ganda! Magkasama sila magasawa, her hubby drove a type 3 fastback na may rag top. I'm still waiting for the pictures.

Then we went to the Tsikot Anniversary Celebration at Hula Hula Restobar at Shangri La Mall. Wow ah! Pica pica lang yung food pero nabusog kami, as in! I also won some STP and Prestone products sa raffle. Again, still waiting for pictures. San ka na ba gov?!?!

Last, we went to Silvercity for D' Gathering. Ang inabutan ko dun sa star studded concert was Julianne (they were having audio problems I think kasi pasigaw siya kumakanta and yet hindi clear), Sitti (I like her, she looks so sweet pero she was a boring performer) then Nina (who I'm a big fan of). Si Nina lang ang malinaw yung voice at hindi biased yang comment na yan ha! She sang Someday, Somewhere Down the Road and Umbrella. Sayang yung outfit niya, cool sana pero biglang may chain sa neck na parang dog. Nakakaoff kasi medyo demeaning ang dating. San na pictures gov!

I'm having an audio visual system installed in Kaydee soon para kay Dana para imbes na ang kulit kulit niya sa back seat, nood na lang siya DVD. I've already discussed it with Jeff Tan and he's installing a JVC/JBL combo. Niresearch ko mga specs, maganda naman so I'm happy. Yun na muna, I have to go to Chevrolet and get the tint fixed, mali yung ginawa ng tinter eh. Tsk!

All About Dana

2007-10-28T10:42:00.000+08:00

Dana as Tinkerbell at her school's halloween party: October 26, 2007

Dana with Barney at Robinson's Galleria after school

Dana as Snow White

Last Friday was a great day for Dana. We woke up early to get her ready for her halloween party. She ate Krispy Kreme doughtnuts with milk for breakfast, her favorite. Then I gave her a bath and dried her hair so I could spray on the temporary hair color to make her blonde that I bought from HBC. Hay naku! Ayun, kinulang so I had to wash her hair again kasi ang pangit naman kung yung lower half lang ng hair niya ang blonde diba? 2 bottles yun ah! Anyway, I spread glitters all over her costume, some on her hair na lang. Tapos, I put shimmer powder all over her body. As you can see, pati yung shoes ni Tinkerbell ginaya namin. Sa Marcella ako nakabili nung furry ball na tinahi on top of it. I made her confetti the night before to act as fairy dust din. Ang ganda niya diba? So they had a program at school, she won a game (yung pahabaan ng pagsabi ng happy halloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen, you get the point, hehe) kaya she was very happy. Afterwards, tumuloy kami sa Galleria for lunch kasi ang gaganda ng results ng exams niya! Minus 2 na yung pinakamababa, yehey! Malamang first honor na naman siya for the quarter, she's so smart talaga. Iyay made her a Snow White costume, wala lang, gift lang daw. She's now walking around the house with it on, as in ayaw niya hubadin! Tapos kanikanina lang, she went in my room with an apple, took a bite and pretended to faint! Hahaha! That made my day.

I'm gonna have some coffee muna. I was up late last night because I was out with my friends, as in lumagare kami. I'll blog about that later na lang. Mwah!

AutoMujeresPinas Get Together

2007-10-22T17:25:00.000+08:00

cha, goldie, jeamie, anna, rose, arlett, ghie, cezy, maryell, lil, rosy, lyn, myself, jacqui

front row: rose, babes, arlett, lyn, myself, jacqui, maryell, cezy
back row: goldy, anna, cha

These two pictures are just some of the very many pictures the ladies took on October 21, 2007 at the Pier One Ortigas parking lot. Yung iba sa mga members diyan ko lang nameet for the first time, ayun, binanatan ko na agad ng kakulitan ko para at ease na agad sila sa akin. It was a fun day. First time mag pictorial ni Kaydee, I wonder when the official pictures will be posted sa website namin?

Anyway, busy kami ni Rose sa outreach, we're hoping to make 75 street kids happy. I've already bought some books that I saw were on sale sa Powerbooks para mabigay sa mga bata. As in mga bagong books na nakaplastic pa 50 pesos lang! Steal! And I know the street children will truly appreciate it kaya happy ako. Hay! Medyo yun nga ang main na iniisip ko ngayon e kasi yung kay Dana tapos na. Ginagawa siya ni Iyay ng Snow White na costume tapos kanina nagpatahi pa ako ng Tinkerbell costume niya. I'm having a hard time trying to find that hair coloring to spray on her so I can make her blonde like Tinkerbell. Ang mahal naman ng wig kaya no to that diba? So, back to the street children...I was at Greenhills kanina at talagang when I see toys and school supplies parang gusto ko ng mamili para sa kanila e wala pa akong pera at saka we don't even know the break down yet (meaning how many kids are male/female and what age) so saka na lang, sabay sabay na lang daw kaming lahat.

Ayun, so to whoever's reading this and you'd like to come and chill with us, we're always at Starbucks sa may Corinthian Drive every Thursday, 8 pm onwards. Everyone is welcome to hang out with us! Friendly kami, promise!

Kaydee is Here...

2007-10-17T12:56:00.000+08:00

I didn't get her on Monday, there were some bank documents problem so that day was just stressful for me. But I got her yesterday! There you see the guys prepping her, someone was putting tint on while another was putting seat covers on and another was checking the engine. I was just waiting for the documents to be ready while I took these pictures. Dana was busy with her gameboy as usual. I think she's addicted to the Bratz game.

So anyway, I was at Chevrolet Pasig from 3 pm - 6:30 pm on Monday. As in ganon ako katagal naghintay dun. Nakapagbayad na ako ng down payment and everything and they guaranteed na okay na ang lahat tapos pagpunta ko dun, SURPRISE!, me problem pala. Kaya sobrang mangiyak ngiyak na ko pero siyempre I composed myself and waited. Binili ko si Dana ng Jollibee para hindi magutom. Tapos nagusap usap na yung general sales manager and dealer operator and they spoke with the bank.

They took so long. Sabi nila nagpapakipot yung bank and everything. So the bank asked for one last requirement bago irelease yung unit. No problem with me, sabi ko just pick it up in the morning and it'll be ready. In fairness to them, they let me take home an Optra kasi nga wala akong dalang car. So the next day, yesterday, nawala na yung enthusiasm ko. Sabi ko sa kanila kapag hindi pa marelease, just cancel the transaction dahil ayoko na at sobrang exhausted ako from Monday na talagang bumagsak ako sa kama with a fever.

So anyway, hindi na ako hopeful. Gusto ko na lang matapos para tapos na ang pagod ko. After picking up Dana from school, we slept lang and when we woke up at around 3:30 pm, ayun, may mga text na from the sales manager that pwede na irelease yung unit. So pumunta agad kami but lo and behold! 7 pm na narelease yung car ko! Kaya talagang hanggang ngayon pagod at stressed pa ako from what they put me through. At least Dana is happy, yun lang naman ang importante eh. Kaya it was worth it pa din.

I Now Pronounce You...

2007-10-15T09:55:00.000+08:00

have a brand new car! Yahoo! Muntik na kaya ako hindi makatulog last night, as in I had to take 3 tablets ng decolgen forte para lang makatulog. Mamaya na yan! Sabi ni Jallen, yung manager sa Chevrolet, that latest na ang 4 pm. Duday faxed the needed requirements to print out the documents para mamayang hapon pick up na lang. Dana and I are ecstatic! Sabi ko sa kanya that if she becomes first honor again this semester, I'll take her on a road trip. Her sem break is coming up. Finally, a week of sleeping in for me.

I had to wake up early for Dana, exams kasi niya today. I was reviewing with her until 8:30 am. Hello naman! She was so bored kasi she already knew everything! She's such an intelligent little girl (got that from me!).

Someone e-mailed me and asked why I don't seem to talk about my love life dito sa blog. Wala lang, I'm not comfortable talking about something that personal eh. I save personal stuff for my closest friends, I'm private like that. This blog is my medicine against boredom. I enjoy reading other blogs and leaving comments and making friends along the way. Pag friends na saka ako nagkukwento! Hahaha!

I saw I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry last night. Tawa ako ng tawa. Beneath the comedy though is a meaningful movie that promotes people rights (they were referring to homosexual rights sa movie but I choose to call it people rights dahil people sila). I've known quite a lot of gay people. Most of my mom's friends are gay and she used to take us with them when they went to Baclaran and bowling afterwards. They are some of the funniest and nicest people that I know. I have gay friends din, sarap nila kasama. Never a dull moment talaga. Kaya seeing Adam Sandler and Kevin James in a movie that tackles this issue made me respect them more. Homosexuals are human, they have rights. Let's not take that away from them just because we think they're different. Para sa kanila different tayo, but do they discriminate us? Treat others as you would want others to treat you.

Visit naman the AutoMujeresPinas website especially if car enthusiast kayo. Plug lang bago tapusin tong entry na to. Mwah!

Can't Hardly Wait

2007-10-12T15:06:00.000+08:00

Why does time go so slowly when you're waiting for something/someone? Diba! As in parang 5 hours and 30 minutes ko ngayon! Ang OA ko noh? I'm so excited about Kaydee, the new car, Dana is too. She keeps asking me when we're going to pick it up. And I keep telling her we're both anxiously waiting and we'll get it soon. So I really hope sa Monday walang mangyari to hinder me from getting it. Dahil nakukulitan na ako kay Dana at nakukulitan na siya sa akin! Hehehe.

So anyway, I'm adding Sandra's website sa links ko kasi I read her blog everyday. Smart 15 year old! Nagleave siya ng comment dito, I felt so old kasi "ate" tawag niya sa akin. I'm going to add more links na madalas kong pinupuntahan para naman makita din sila ng ibang tao na pumupunta dito (kung meron man, haha).

I'm sorry I can't sit still so I have to cut this short. Mwah!

Yay!

2007-10-11T12:18:00.000+08:00

I received word that my application for the new car was approved yesterday! Yahoo! So that picture up there is it. Chevrolet Spark yan. Ayoko sana niyan kasi Korean ang engine pero since they're under GM, pwede na sa ngayon dahil practical yung price niya. 55,000 yung downpayment tapos 10,000 a month. Maayos at comfortable na car na yan para sa amin ni Dana kaya worth it. I think my unit will be released on Monday na so super sobrang excited ako! I haven't told my club mates, only Janniz and Gov know about it. Sabi ko sa kanila secret na muna namin para surprise ko na lang everyone else sa Starbucks tambay namin. Hahaha! I can imagine the look on their faces dahil talagang wala silang clue na I was even planning to buy. I wasn't really kaya lang, maganda yung deal so sayang kung hindi grab diba? Yun na muna, I have to go to Uratex pa.

Randomness

2007-10-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

I love the joyful juliana font, it almost looks like my own writing in print.

The second level of Aladdin is pissing me off, I suck at video games.

I'm planning to buy a new car, I hope it comes through by the end of the month.

I'm busy helping organize our club's outreach project, it's fulfilling and exhausting.

CSI Las Vegas dvd number 6 is missing, I wonder where it is.

I really want the HP TX1213 AU, such a sexy laptop.

After CSI, Gilmore Girls naman, I love that mother and daughter tandem.

I've ran out of books to read at home, maybe I shouldn't finish one every 2 hours.

I drink coffee too much, I should cut down.

I'm looking for private health insurance, any suggestions?

I need to get back to what I'm doing, sorry I'm neglecting the blog again.

Spice Up Your Life

2007-10-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

Some people may find this corny but OH MY GOSH! The Spice Girls are having a reunion concert! I hope I get to see it. I love them!

Pre-Christmas Thoughts

2007-09-30T13:50:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of September, next thing we know it'll be Christmas. Everywhere I go madami na nagbebenta ng mga Christmas stuff, madami ng pre-holiday season sale. I wonder how I can make this Christmas great for Dana? I don't think I've done such a great job although I know I've tried my best. I brought her here to the Philippines because I know I won't be able to be a good mother in Canada. True that there are many more opportunities there especially for a single mother like myself pero I fear for her values kapag dun siya lumaki. Kaya lang nga kapag ganyan na holiday season, where families seem to be all together. Siya, wala yung papa niya. I've compensated with abundant and expensive gifts but I know that's not enough. I brought her to my grandma's house, may mga bata kasi dun so may mga playmates siya. She looked happy but I've always wondered if she felt complete.

I heard my dad was here in the Philippines for 10 days. I pondered the idea that I should go up to him and talk to him and just give him pictures of Dana para lang alam niya that she's doing really well and that I'm turning out to be a great mother. He'll be proud of me. He won't show it of course, daddy ko pa! Ang pride nun minsan lagpas langit eh! Akala ko nga he'll be here for Christmas, that would've been a perfect time to bring Dana to him hindi ba?

All I wish for this Christmas is that my daughter be completely happy. She's been such a good girl after all.

Bumper 2 Bumper and Then Some...

2007-09-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

Automujerespinas will be participating in this event. Bumper 2 bumper is special para sa amin dahil ito ang pinakaunang car show na sumali ang AMP, last year yun. 3 months old pa lang ang AMP, 7 members pa lang yata kami. How time flies talaga diba? Now, 39 na kami at madami ng alliances and sponsors. Saya! I hope to see you guys there!

So anyhoo, there's a storm here again, Hannah is the name, tama ba? Dana was supposed to have school (make up class from when there were no classes due to storms before) pero dahil signal number 1, umuwi din kami. So now we're just chilling at home playing games. E pag naglalaro na yung bata na yun hindi na ko pinapansin. Kaya now I have time to blog.

I read Bianca's new entry sa blog niya kahapon, wow, I didn't know Angelina Jolie had a book. I am so buying it! She has gotten a lot of bad rep because of the whole "breaking up a home" thing but you know what? Nobody can deny that she does a lot of good. That she truly makes a difference. Period. Honestly, I love Jennifer Aniston, but I do not dislike (I can't possibly hate someone I don't know personally, hence the term dislike) Angelina. I think anybody with a right mind will find it hard to not like someone so actively helpful, generous and sincere.

Speaking of helping, AMP will have it's second outreach project on December 2. Sana mapasaya namin ang mga bata kahit sa konting food and toys na madadala namin. Hay! Everytime I see kids na malungkot I can't help but maiyak na. I hope it will be a smashing success! Wish us luck for the kids!

So Proud...

2007-09-26T15:48:00.000+08:00

Dana received first honors for the first trimester. I am so proud. Kaya ayan binili ko ng games sa gameboy niya dahil she so deserves it diba? My baby is the coolest!

Missing Boracay

2007-09-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

We just got back yesterday. Eventhough there was way more rain than sun, I miss Boracay already! Here are some pictures I've managed to upload so far...I'm still trying to upload the others.

Dana in front of a sandcastle

Dana by the beach

in front of the Boracay Mandarin

in front of patio pacific

our feet

if i remember correctly, this was taken in front of fridays

We were supposed to stay at White House but because of it's location, we went ahead and tried La Carmela de Boracay. Honestly? It was fine. The room was clean. Service was great EXCEPT for this one girl in reception. We just got there, soaking wet because of the rain (the person they hired to assist us in our transfer didn't bring an umbrella!) and they didn't have our room ready. When we asked ang sabi ba naman in a pasuplada way "inaayos pa namin!" Pasalamat siya kasama ko si Dana or else I would've bitched at her! We've had the reservation for weeks! I sent them a text letting them know we were near! Pero hindi pa din nakahanda yung room! Damn! Okay lang sana eh kaya lang that CHUBBY girl had the guts to answer like that! Basang basa na kami tapos ganon pa! Hay naku tama na nga nag-iinit lang ang ulo ko. Anyway, I'm kinda sleepy pa so I'll just blog more some other time. Hope everyone is doing great.

Help Kids Learn Project

2007-09-15T12:52:00.000+08:00

I am so happy to have come across this project dahil sobrang importante sa akin ang edukasyon. As a mother, I can't help but fast forward and visualize what I hope my daughter's life will be like and to finish college is number one sa mga wishes ko sa kanya. Sana maging diligent siya at sana lagi siyang excited na matuto ng madaming iba't ibang mga bagay. Kaya nung nabasa ko ang goal ng project na ito, I just knew that I want to help out dahil sayang ang mga bata na gustong mag-aral pero hindi kaya. I'm planning to register a .org para sa project na ito pero siyempre pending pa yan as per the founder's decision if she wants it or not dahil I don't want to impose di ba? Sobrang saludo ako sa lahat ng tao behind this project. These are the kind of people na masarap makilala dahil may passion sila at may direksyon sa buhay. Hindi lang yun, they also help others find direction in life. Hindi ba ang saya? So to everyone
who's reading this, check it out please, napakalaking tulong ng project na ito sa mga kabataang Pilipino.

Help kids learn project website

Happy 5th Birthday Dana!

2007-09-13T13:45:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANABEAR!

Here are some pictures we've taken today, she's in school right now so I'm taking this time to share them.

the birthday girl wearing her new crocs

dana claims that crocs are the "coolest, ugliest things ever ever ever"

some of her gifts: life jacket, speedo bathing suit, princess towel

That's all for now. I'll be occupied with Dana today.

Dana's Birthday

2007-09-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

In 2 days, my little angel will be turning 5 na. Naiiyak na ko ngayon pa lang. Ang bilis bilis niya lumaki. I was getting her ready for school kanina and I don't know why pero naluha ako. She hugged me and asked me what was wrong. Sabi ko sa kanya wala lang, I'm just happy na siya yung baby ko. Then she said "I'm not a baby anymore mommy, I'm almost 5", hay! Dun na ko naiyak. They grow up too fast...

Ugh!

2007-09-09T13:59:00.000+08:00

My monthly visitor comes on Septemer 13th (yes I know when it comes, sue me!), my desmenorrhea is starting to act up and it hurts like hell. Think positive na lang! Tapos na yun by the time I have to leave for Boracay! Okay, positive thinking is so not working...

The second best gift this year

2007-09-09T00:42:00.001+08:00

It's ~~plane~~ and simple, Cebu Pacific is the number 1 domestic airline...which is why they are offering over 100,000 seats for only 1 PESO (plus taxes of course) to all domestic destinations from September 7 to 11, 2007 for travel between November 1 - December 20, 2007. I just wanted to share this little tidbit to my fellow travellers at sa mga may mabubuting loob, sa Bacolod ko po gustong pumunta, libre niyo ko? Hehehe...Check it out at their website.

These are the second best gifts I got this year (yes, you may call me a nerd) and it came from Iyay, someone I love dearly. She has been giving me books as gifts lately because she knows how much I love to read! I so want to read them already kaya lang naisip ko na malapit na akong pumunta ng Boracay and I need some reading materials for when it's too hot to stay under the sun (that's if we're lucky enough to catch some rays considering it's the Habagat season). I'm light skinned at takot ako sa skin cancer kaya kahit na patung-patong ang sunblock ko na SPF 50, ayoko pa din magbabad sa araw ng tanghaling tapat. Siguro Dana and I will lounge by the hotel pool or she can nap while I read diba?

I need to sleep but I'm not sleepy. Just think, September 9 na! 10 more days at pupunta na kami sa Boracay! So excited!

Birthday Night

2007-09-08T18:52:00.001+08:00

We saw A Love Story starring Mr. Aga Muhlach, Ms. Maricel Soriano and Ms. Angelica Panganiban. I'm still digesting it so I can't comment on it right now. I had a bad birthday, hence, I was in a horrible mood so I couldn't enjoy the movie. I didn't want to go out but was forced. I just wanted the night over with.

So anyway, yesterday Dana and I went to Robinson's Galleria to buy her a bathing suit for our upcoming Boracay trip. That kid has expensive taste I tell you! She chose a pink Speedo suit, which looked really nice on her. I'll be sure to post our Boracay pictures when we get back.

More on yesterday, I was in line at Burger King when I suddenly heard loud, obnoxious voices behind me. Grabe! These two girls were talking at mura sila ng mura, nadidinig sila ng lahat ng tao at lalo pang nilakasan ang mga boses nila. After I had ordered and turned to take a seat, nagulat ako dahil these girls go to a "supposedly" good school which all of us know. Nakakadisappoint at nakakatakot at the same time kasi naisip ko paano na si Dana kung kahit mga exclusive schools dito ganoon na din ang mga products na students. Kaya nga ako nandito para hindi magkaron ng ganoong ugali ang anak ko tapos meron pa din pala? It's so easy to blame it on the parents pero these students spend most of their times in the schools really so who's to blame now? Ewan ko. Basta ako, I'll just do my best and hope and pray that I'm good enough to guide Dana to the good path in life. Hay! Help!

*Image of A Love Story courtesy of click the city*

Photographs

2007-09-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

I've neglected this blog due to the events of the past year but today is my birthday so I want to spend some time and post some pictures of what goes on in my life. Enjoy!

Dana grabbed me from the couch and asked me to take this picture, she dressed herself, those are not her clothes, sabi niya mermaid daw siya

this picture was taken at Pan de Amerikana, a restaurant in Marikina. Sabi ni Dana kalaban daw niya yung other side

pictures from first haircut: azta urban salon at robinson's metro east

her favorite baby doll named Angel

cool huh?

she loves her krispy kreme

me on the left and mara on the right at eastwood city for team amp's motoring weekend

me and gov richard at teriyaki boy, eastwood

the ladies of automujerespinas

goofing off, ginagaya ko lang si rose

teena, myself, jo-an and gia sa boracay

G, myself and Rose on the way to Volkswagen Day

songer daw ako

my princess

she wants that car

sunrise at la luz resort san juan, batangas

she loved her bangs

That's it for now na muna kasi I need to go and pick her up from school pa. We're going to Boracay for a joint birthday celebration on the 19th! Can't wait.

Daddy's Girl

2007-09-06T11:13:00.000+08:00

I last saw my father on September 11, 2004. Last spoke to him by phone at the end of the same year. I miss him so much. You see, like most little girls, I was a bonafide daddy's girl. He was the one who stayed home helping my siblings and I with homework and other random stuff while my mother ran the business. He made sure I went to great schools. He did everything to give what he says is times 10 of what his parents gave him.

I remember people thinking na "ander" siya ng mommy ko dahil siya ang nasa bahay, I thought so too until he went out and got a job. He didn't need one, our business was going well as far as I could tell pero sabi niya dahil daw sa akin kaya siya nagwork. Tinanong ko daw kasi siya kung bakit siya ang nasa bahay e daddy siya...I was like 5. Anyway, so he worked and didn't stop there. He got a job in Singapore but went home soon after because there was no chance of immigration and being a citizen. Tapos nun sabi niya sa akin na dadalhin niya kami sa isang country na kasama sa G7 and on September 1996, off he went to Canada. My little brother and I followed a year later and those tears in my father's eyes when he first saw us at Edmonton International Airport was the first time I saw how much he loves us.

I've let him down many times and I'm ashamed to say I never made that up to him. Maybe someday I'll be able to. When that time comes that everything is right in the world, hay, not likely huh? But for today, my birthday, I am still a daddy's girls in my heart and I will be until my last breath.

Prelude to a New Life

2007-09-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

I will be 24 years old in a couple of days. Not young but why do I feel like a newborn? I have done many things wrong, even immoral and last week I wrote someone a letter to apologize. He is someone so good that he didn't deserve to be hurt by me. Someone I shouldn't have left. At the time I was with him I wanted him to be the one although I knew deep down that he isn't. He gave me the most precious gift I've ever received - my daughter. He was my husband and he treated me like a queen. Why this blog entry turned out to be about him, I'm not certain. I'm just typing what I feel like and I guess finally apologizing to him renewed me. When I get another year older, I will proclaim that the beginning of my new life. A life of love and learning with my daughter. I am fortunate to have the pleasure of caring for someone so intelligent, kind and beautiful who loves me inspite of my shortcomings as a mother. Who makes me laugh hysterically. Who embraces me when I'm lonely. I have always felt incomplete but with my decision to a fresh start came the realization that I have been complete for almost five years but was just asinine to not have known it all that time. To everyone I have loved, hurt and lost, I apologize profusely. To those who stuck by me I am grateful. To all I love and will love, I look forward to days of joy and sorrow, health and pain, adoration and loathe, a life worth living with all of you. Advanced happy birthday to myself and a toast for the many adventures to come.

Financially Challenged

2007-04-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

Rent is due on the 5th of May.

Tuition is due on the 4th of May.

Phone bills, electric bill, cable bill...all due this last week of April.

I hate being an adult.

PS I Love You

2007-04-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

Whenever I go online, I always make it a point to read my favorite online blogs, Cat's blog is one of them. Because of her tidbit about PS I love you by Cecelia Ahern, I went out and bought it and since poor me is still recuperating, it proved to be a hard day out. Anyway, I found the book hard to put down, seriously! I forgot to eat, almost forgot to drink medicines and my bladder needed to be sriously full before I even considered going to the bathroom. The story made me cry a little and laugh a whole lot because of the witty character banter. I caught Dana staring at me at one point and when I looked at her she said, "you're nuts!" Maybe I am but really you have got to read this book. It surprised me to find out that the author is a 24 year old, a mere year older than I am. Oh how my dreams of becoming a writer have come back! :)

I think I'm gonna have to do what Gerry did for Holly if ever I know that I'll be departing the world soon.

Cat, if you're reading this. Thank you again for sharing this.

Almost There

2007-04-24T10:53:00.000+08:00

I've always been a very private person. This is the reason why I don't divulge my whole personal stuff here. I don't advertise having the blog either. I just like writing and I'm too lazy to actually write so I type. Make sense? Anyway, I'm particularly private about my health because I've had heaps of trouble with it and people who tend to know about it usually pity me because of it. I don't like being pitied. There are others who have it worse than I do.

I've been sick and am just starting to get better and as an inspiration to getting better fast, my friend bought us advance tickets to Spiderman 3 at the very comfortable, quite expensive Gateway Cineplex 10 which features lazy boy seats and unlimited drinks and popcorn. I am excited and these tickets prompted me to eat and sleep a lot and drink my medicine religiously. Apparently, the May 1 premiere show is already sold out, second day of showing is not bad at all!

Music and Lyrics

2007-04-07T13:55:00.000+08:00

I have been unable to go out which is why I just got to watch Music and Lyrics. Finally, I bought it on pirated dvd and I got to see it. The movie is too simple for my taste, nevertheless, it made me smile and laugh out loud at times. Hugh Grant and his awful dancing was what made my stomach hurt from laughing. I don't know why the sight of grown men making a fool out of themselves are enjoyable in my eyes, I'm weird like that I guess. Drew Barrymore was cute as always and that song Way Back Into Love is quite catchy. The character who plays Cora Corman reminds me of Paris Hilton for some reason.

Anyway, things have been hectic. I've been sick. Still sick but still holding on thanks to friends who are always there for me. I have to rest for now but as soon as I am well, will update a lot more than I've been doing.

Here are the song lyrics for anyone who wants to know:

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

It has been forever...

2007-03-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

...since I last posted here. I've been busy with a lot of very important things. The picture to the left is from the latest bug run to Tagaytay...there were about a hundred VWs there, Dana had fun seeing them. I don't like bug runs, I'll never join another one again.

Anyway, expect me to be gone more because I really have to work on something. Gotta bounce...again.

Crappiest Field Trip EVER!!!

2007-02-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 5:30 in the morning today because it was Dana's field trip. I had high expectations for today since we paid a pretty nifty sum to join. So, we got to school at 6:45 in the morning, granted we got there at the last minute but imagine my irritation when I saw there were not enough comfortable seats for me and Dana. I have to admit I almost blew a lid but when I saw Dana so happy and excited I immediately calmed down.

On we went all the way to Paranaque (a 2 hour drive because of the traffic), only to stay at the Mongol factory for not even an hour before we drove to Marikina (which is close to Antipolo). Anyway, Mongol was a total bust! It really was! What a waste of time.

Next, as I mentioned, was Marikina to go to the World of Butterflies where there were barely any butterflies and where the kids were all so hungry (because it was 12:15 pm when we got there) that it also turned out to be a waste!

Last was Avilon Zoo in Rodriguez, Rizal. So freaking far! Half the zoo is under renovation and there weren't enough animals to call it a zoo in my opinion.

We all just had a really really bad day.

The Pursuit of HappYness

2007-02-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

I finally got to see this movie via dvd (yes it's pirated) the other day. I have actually been waiting to see this in theatres but it's just taking too long so I had to resort to buying the dvd. Anyway, Will Smith acting as a less fortunate person was just not convincing but I commend him still for trying to hard. He's such a dedicated performer and that son of his was pretty good as well.

This got me thinking, we all want to be happy. But what is happiness? For me, it's Dana. Dana who is beautiful, intelligent and loving. Dana who loves me unconditionally and who I love more than she loves me.

Happiness is also being able to do what I love. Being able to love a select few with all of my heart without reservations. I can say that after evrything I have been through, big or small, I am a happy person. I am complete. My pursuit of happiness has ended.

The Beach

2007-01-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

That is a picture I took of the parasol we spent the night in at La Luz Resort, San Juan, Batangas. We left at 5 in the morning on January 20th, it was me, some friends, their kids and mine, some parents. We got to the resort at around 8 am.

I loved the serenity of the place and how the guests were all considerate of the other guests. Meals were served buffet style. We were originally just gonna be there for the day but Paul had so much fun he asked all of us for an overnight and so we did.

The water was clear and there was some good snorkelling although I couldn't stay in the water for too long because I am still bleeding. I saw lots of fishes, big and small under water and even an eel (which scared me).

I spent most of the time just reading the new Nicholas Sparks novel Dear John. I tried to play beach volleyball with them but I was in pain in no time so I had to stop right away.

The kids had a great time, that's what matters.

Anyway, have to go and pick up Dana's report card now.

Christmas at Policarpio Street

2006-12-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ever since I spent Christmas here in the Philippines in 2004 I've heard stories about how wonderfully the house owners at Policarpio Street in Mandaluyong decorate their homes. My friend, who grew up Iglesia Ni Cristo, meaning they don't celebrate Christmas and who rarely appreciates stuff like these was actually the one who couldn't stop talking about them and asking me to go with him. This year, because Dana is so excited about Christmas lights, I decided to go. I also wanted Taco Bell and Starbucks so...yeah! Anyway, it was such a disappointment. First of all, so many vendors sprouted at the closest streets and people stood by the sidewalk and asked to be paid for parking there eventhough the houses aren't theirs to begin with.

So we entered Policarpio Street and it was another big disappointment because it wasn't I expected it to be (based on the stories) but still for Dana's sake, we walked through the entire street where one house was actually asking 10 pesos for admission. The only house I found decorated with effort is the one in the picture. See the Santa up there? That is no robot, that is an actual person dressed as Santa waving at everybody. Poor guy. I was sweating in my jeans and top I wonder how uncomfortable he is?

Dana wasn't so impressed either but still she smiled and said Mommy thank you for taking me to see Christmas lights. Ahhhh! All the trouble of driving an hour to go there and 2 hours going back home well spent because of those ten little words.

Prison Break 2

2006-12-02T03:32:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching season 2 of Prison Break. It was boring compared to the first season. See the picture? Yes, it is a mini dvd, a pirated mini dvd but still, it's so cute! I'm still wide awake so I decided to blog via my cell which has a pretty fast internet service at this time.

I'm meeting with my car clubmates tomorrow somewhere in Tomas Morato. We're going to talk about the upcoming Christmas party and maybe go shopping afterwards. I already gave some of the gifts I gathered, away. I know it's early, it's just I don't really want to keep on going back there. Anyway, I'm logged in the forum so I gotta go and attend to the forumers now.

Vaccination

2006-11-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

I took Dana to the clinic near my house to be vaccinated yesterday. She turned 4 last September and acccording to her immunization booklet she needs DPT, Polio and MMR shots. Anyway, so I went there 10 minutes early to get signed in and went on to cubicle number 2 to wait for her name to be called. The doctor who was supposed to be there at 5 pm arrived at 5:40. Lo and behold, the first name they called was not my daughter's name but someone who signed in 15 minutes after I did. I let it slide, I saw her baby looked pale and maybe needed to see the doctor urgently. Next thing I knew, the mother and the pediatrician were talking their heads off and laughing. Hello? Could she be more unprofessional? After another 15 minutes, they emerged and the doctor called another name, it wasn't Dana's name again! I was furious by this time so I called the attendant and asked why they were going first and all she could say was because Dana is a new patient. I hate that clinic! And it's supposed to be a good clinic and everything.

I left and never turned back. I'm just never gonna go there ever again. Dana will get her shots at Medical City this Saturday. They're competent there, I know, that's where I go for my check ups. I don't care if it's an hour drive, I just won't tolerate incompetence.

Busy

2006-11-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

I've been really busy with the AutoMujeresPinas forums. Update soon.

Swimming with a Hang over

2006-11-13T11:45:00.000+08:00

Spent 3 whole hours doing breaststrokes yesterday. Obviously, I'm still in pain but it's all good coz I burned a lot of calories.

That's my Dana looking out at the pool after swimming. She was trying to get close to the water thinking I wouldn't notice and hoping that if she got wet I would let her swim again.

The kids had fun, it was nice. It wasn't such a pain in my head since we were outdoors and so their screams didn't sound too bad.

We'll do it again soon.

A Little Too Much Cosmo

2006-11-12T10:58:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna make this short and sweet because I had a little too much cosmopolitans last night so I have a serious hang over right now.

Last night was fun, the new friends I made are so easy to get along with. Check them out at the North Auto Club website and the upcoming AutoMujeres Pilipinas website. They're talkative and are up to anything just like I am. I really had so much fun. Now on to swimming with the kids while bearing with my headache.

She loves me

2006-11-07T10:18:00.000+08:00

I was so into reading a magazine earlier when Dana started asking me how to spell some words. So I dictated the letters as I kept reading, half paying attention to what she was doing (she's been scribbling the whole morning since she woke up). I noticed she was silent for a while when she suddenly placed a piece of paper on top of what I was reading and it said I love you mommy. I asked her why she loves me and she just said Mahal na mahal kita e (I love you so much) and that for me is explanation enough. I had to take a picture of what she wrote down for me just to share how loving my daughter is and how lucky I am to have her.

I remember back when I was 18 and pregnant, how people would look at me with scrutiny. I knew what they were thinking. Most mothers my age know what I'm talking about. It used to make me cry because those people didn't know me. What right did they have to judge me? But then I got to thinking that I should pity them for being so narrow minded. They didn't even know that we planned on getting pregnant, we wanted her. She was not an accident.

Although Dana's father and I aren't together anymore, we've remained civil for her because we both want to be good parents. We just couldn't stay together for her sake, it would be wrong to live a life together without the same amount of love for each other. It would have been a lie. I don't regret knowing him because he's part of the reason why I have Dana. She has seen me through it all. She has been my strength and all she ever had to do was smile.

She loves me. That's all I need.

Test Me

2006-11-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

These are all the products of my boredom.

tests from sparknotes

the personality test

you are a healer (submissive extroverted concrete feeler)

caring, good with people, and patient. you are completely selfless and full of love. as a concrete feeler, you do well with your emotions, which are very strong. you understand and appreciate why you feel the way you do, and for the most part you're at peace with yourself.

suffering in the world really pisses you off.

in relationships, it's easy for you to get hurt. avoid all kinds of dominant people, especially in dating or marriage. you are a motherly figure, even if you're a guy. if you're a girl, make sure you're a mom some day. the world's children need people like you.

on the rare occasions when you try to assert yourself, you're cute and awkward, but highly effective.

the dateable test

you are 76% dateable

attractive and confident, witty and charming, a healthy ambrosia-based diet... you're wanted in the 48 contiguous states, you slayer. call me. seduce me. not only do you know how to turn the engines on, but you also know how to oil, lube and rotate them. you put the "elation" back into "relationship."

tests from tickle

the american idol test

you're a natural superstar

when you step on stage, you shine. it's true - you look good in the limelight. there's nothing gimmicky or rehearsed about you, and your charismatic presence is honest and alluring - even if your only preparation involved years of singing in the shower. the competition had better beware - you've got talent, and you know how to use it. simply put, you make everything look easy.

you've got that star quality that draws people to you. a little bold determination and confidence don't hurt either. so it's no wonder you're going places whether it's as an american idol or the next international superstar. rock on!

the love test

you just love to love, don't you? we can tell that you're a die-hard romantic who appreciates the deep sentiment that loving, meaningful words and actions bring to life. love and romance go hand-in-hand for you, so you adore pouring on the terms of endearment, the hopeful promises, and the doting acts you think your fella deserves. whether you're in an idealistic and caring mood or being sweet, playful, and impulsive, you're a giving partner who's eager to express how excited you are about your relationship. for you, love is all about sharing your feelings and making your significant other feel cherished. after all, the more often you reassure him of the strength of your emotions, the better, right? and you love tapping your creative side to express how much he means to you and how important you think his needs are. congratulations - you really know how to celebrate your love.

is he the one?

go ahead and stop your search, because it looks like you've found "the one"! you are one lucky woman! destiny has brought you two together. all of your best qualities probably shine when you are around your man. and the same goes for him. the complementary nature of your relationship is one huge indication that he's perfect for you! even better - your responses indicate that you've found not only a romantic partner, but a great friend as well. nothing's better than finding both in one person.

there's no easy recipe for a long-lasting relationship, but you've somehow found the main ingredients. chemistry is definitely a great starter. then you just need to add some trust, communication, and respect. of course, a dollop of humor and a generous amount of romance make the meal much more satisfying. there are many more things you can add to make it better, but those extra ingredients depend on the needs of the relationship and the individuals involved. the two of you have clearly mastered the key elements and seem well on your way to building a loving, long-lasting relationship. congratulations!

the wedding date predictor

you will be married by saturday, july 7, 2007

on the social front, you are pretty serious marriage material. as you read this, forces beyond your control are aligning to put you on the altar with mr. right. it's you, girl. your number is up, and someone out there is just dying to pop you the question. there's no need to book a flight to vegas, but you might want to start thinking about your wedding gown.

emotionally, you seem to be fairly ready for marriage. you show strong signs of being a contender, and you've got what it takes to make the plunge. maybe any hesitation is just a small case of the "jitters." in any case, for mr. right, it's practically a done deal. he's just waiting for the right moment, so sit back and let it happen.

what kind of friend are you?

no one ever accused you of not having a soft side. and that's why friends flock to your sympathetic ear and well-thought-out advice. you are tuned in to the world around you, and you are always looking for ways to bring people together and enjoy each other's company.

while some people might have one or two close friends, you like to spread your wings and socialize with any number of people. you are open-hearted and free-spirited, making it easy for you to find common ground with anyone you meet. keep up the good work — everyone could use a friend like you.

what's your celebrity look?

forget fussy routines and beauty salons, you're all about the casual Look. for you, a freewheeling, low-maintenance lifestyle is a simple virtue. your sporty look comes complete with natural, feminine charm and a cute, sun-kissed glow that speaks volumes about your healthy approach to life. for you, looking good is never a chore, it just comes naturally. your spontaneous side is always open to new adventures, so your look is always good to go. something fun, like worn jeans and a sexy cotton tank top, is just your speed. for makeup, it's nothing too fancy - maybe some sheer gloss and light mascara to give you that last minute pulled-together look. and like all those famously casual girls next door, meg ryan, renee zellweger, and sandra bullock, your relaxed look is sure to turn a few heads wherever you go.

the love or money test

when it comes to love or money, you're a hopeless romantic

for richer? for poorer? it doesn't matter to you because you're the hopeless romantic. whether your sweetie is an oil baron or a grease monkey, it's all about until death do us part.

even if you haven't met "the one," you'll judge your soul mate by the love letters, roses, and foot massages - not the size of their bankroll. and even if their wallet is as fat as their sonnet collection, the toughest part of your relationship will be arguing over which charity to choose, who loves whom more, and who's the bigger schmoopie. and if that diamond ring turns brass, no biggie - your love is totally not-for-profit.

what color is your aura?

sapphire

people with blue auras feel everything strongly - you tend to get a little emotional at the drop of a hat. you're also deeply spiritual and introspective. matters of the heart, mind, and soul are important to you, and your waters run as deep as the ocean. nurturing by nature, you're likely a loving, supportive caretaker. that's why friends, family, and co-workers adore you. they know you're a good listener and always have great advice and a shoulder for them to cry on. in fact, if we had to find a fault, it's that you can be a tad too self-sacrificing. remember that it's okay to say no sometimes. you forgive everyone else for their weaknesses, so go ahead and forgive yourself for a little well-deserved selfishness. indulge your creative side and do something artsy, or just take a break from being the world's counselor. you'll come back refreshed and ready for more.

what zodiac sign should you be?

a scorpio

the planets are very complex. maybe your astrologer will disagree, and maybe a few tendencies will vary, but overall you're a scorpio. you're just like a water sign, which comes out in the way you're so in tune with your emotions and your intuitions. your symbol is a scorpion, which represents your secretive nature and your ability to emit a powerful poison when vengeful. a bundle of contradictions, you have the ability to demonstrate both the best and worst qualities that characterize human nature. generally, you are intense and passionate, yet stubborn and competitive. you use your intuition fearlessly, and you have a tendency to explore the nature of existence through the study of philosophy and religion. although it is difficult for you to trust others, whenever you finally do, the result is deep and powerful. on the downside, however, you must work hard to suppress your jealousy. your dedication, drive, and persistence will guarantee you success, and you are known and respected for your imagination and idealism.

what's your true color?

blue

you're blue - the most soothing shade of the spectrum. the color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you - they're soothed by your calming presence. cool and collected, you rarely overreact. instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. that level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue - and patently you!

test from iq test

your iq test score is 143

100 the average iq score

120 smart enough to finish most college undergraduate level courses

130 entry level "genius" score

140 definitely genius level

150 less than 1/2 of 1% of all iq test takers achieve this score or higher

Bizu for Yummy Desserts

2006-10-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

My trusty nanny came at 8 in the morning so I could go out for some alone time today. Leaving Dana in trusted hands, I scurried on to Robinson's Galleria so I could have my cellphone re-masked because there are some wrinkles that bothered me. My friend and I left my phone with the gmask staff and went on to Greenhills Shopping Centre where I bought a cute faded mini and awesome khaki jacket that just made me so happy. (Yes I can be shallow and buying clothes I really want makes me happy, so what?) Anyway...

We wanted to try something new to eat so we proceeded towards Cibo but as soon as I got a glimpse of the cakes displayed at Bizu, I just knew I had to eat there. I had the Grilled Chicken Pesto Sandwich. The complementary bread was okay. I didn't like the spaghetti. My sandwich was different but I can't say it's good. But the blueberry cheesecake was a whole other thing. It was creamy and not too sweet with just the right texture and I fell in love with it at first bite. It was just so good that the one thousand peso bill didn't bother us.

So, for desserts I would definitely go to Bizu, only for desserts.

Is my Maternal Clock Ticking?

2006-10-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

Babies are adorable little creatures. I should know, I've been pretty lucky with my little girl.

Let me start with the nine months of carrying her in my tummy. I have to admit, the first four months were hell. I threw up everything I ate, went to the bathroom every 5 minutes and my back ached terribly I could barely walk around (which is recommended daily while pregnant). At the fifth month things started getting better until that day I went to labor. I had a 10 am doctor's appointment that day. I was already feeling some cramps from my stomach but it wasn't painful, not even uncomfortable so I thought nothing of it. I went to the clinic and the receptionist noticed I was rubbing my tummy a lot so she asked how I was feeling (knowing I was due on not even 2 weeks from that day), so I told her about the cramping and she said that just to be sure she wasn't gonna let me wait and bumped me in front of the other expecting mothers so the doctor could see me right away. She also said that it's probably nothing since I wasn't having discomfort. My doctor checked me and I was 1 cm. dilated, since she's my first baby he said that it could still take about a week before I go into labor so I thanked them and went on my way.

I went to the mall to window shop and eat my favorite Tim Horton's chocolate chip bagel with butter and mushroom soup. After 2 hours, I went home and was kinda panicked to see I had some blood on my underwear. I called the hospital and told them about this. The nurse kept telling me that if I wasn't feeling any pain that it couldn't be labor but had me come in anyway to get checked. So I was back up again to go to the hospital with my prepared baby bag with with me. I think evryone in the nursing staff were surprised to find that I was already 8cms. dilated and not feeling any pain. That's right, no pain at 8 cms. So I was confined at 5pm and was brought in my nice and cozy private room. At 7 pm I suddenly felt a strong, sharp, excruciating pain and soon found out I was fully dilated and ready to give birth. The attending doctor was with another patient at the time and the nurse asked me to not push until the doctor was there. I held on for about 5 minutes and then told her that I couldn't wait any longer. At 7:24 pm, I gave birth to Angel.

She was a good baby. You know how most mothers would say their babies kept them up all night? Dana didn't do that to me. She woke up every 3 hours on routine for feeding and a change of diapers all day every day for 3 months. At 8 months old she stood on her own for the first time and a month later took her first step. I tell you she was just a good cutie pie. What's more, she didn't go through the terrible twos.

Now, I get the pleasure of seeing her on top of her class eventhough she's younger than then all of them by at least a year. She hugs me and kisses me and tells me she loves me every day. When I'm sick, she puts a washcloth over my forehead to bring my fever down and brings me my medicine. I'm happy. I know I've taught her well. I know she's growing up to be a loving and intelligent person and it makes me so proud. She is my greatest accomplishment. The most precious gift I've ever received and eventhough she throws tantrums at times, I can't ask for more.

I decided to blog this because earlier today I was thinking that maybe I want to have another baby already. But then I also know that I need to go on my much needed break and self revelation. I would love to give Dana a little brother or sister to love and care for. I would love to take care of another little one.

So what do I do now?

Halika, Byahe Tayo!

2006-10-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

The Philippines has 7,107 islands ~~7,106 during the high tide says Charlene Gonzalez, hehehe~~. I would love to explore every nook and cranny of our beautiful country. I've been given the go signal so this means I am ready to take on wherever the roads take me. Wanna come with?

Wait...where's my planner?

Dilemma

2006-10-19T09:53:00.000+08:00

Cellphone dilemma...which one should I get?

The N93 is the successor of the N92, and so is a clamshell phone with swiveling 2.4" QVGA display and 3.2-megapixel camera with 3x optical zoom and Carl Zeiss lens, which can also capture VGA-sized video with up to 30 frames per second. It also features Wi-Fi, Bluetooth, Infrared, and USB connectivity.

Weight 6.3 oz
Band / mode WCDMA / GSM 900/1800/1900
Talk time Up to 306 min
Standby time Up to 240 h
Display technology LCD display
Display resolution 320 x 240 pixels
Battery installed 1Lithium polymer

A Cyber-shot digital camera and a small and sophisticated feature-packed 3G mobile phone all in one. Open the lens cover and you're ready to take the picture. Bring the K800i with you and you have a 3.2 megapixel camera with autofocus, built-in xenon flash and image and video stabilizer function ready for any moment, anytime. And a 3G phone for sharing your pictures. Instantly.

Weight 115g
Dimensions 105 x 47 x 22 mm
Band / mode GSM 900, 1800, 1900, UMTS
Talk time up to 7 hours
Standby time up to 350 hours
Display technology Colour TFT
Display resolution 240x320 pixel
Battery installed Lithium ion
Wireless connectivity Bluetooth, Infrared

Road Trip

2006-10-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

Planning a road trip to Pagudpud, Ilocos Norte. I've heard great things about Maira-ira aka Blue Lagoon so I'm really looking forward to camping there. I have lost my enthusiasm towards VW beetles. Why? Because most people I have asked for help seem to be steering me the wrong way which completely sucks because I really adored the beetle. Now, I just loathe it (Is this angry talk?). So many cruel people in the Volkswagen world. I wonder if they trust their so-called friends? I have some proof that some don't. Anyway, scratch Baguio...Pagudpud...here we come!

Thank you Marlin for the picture of Maira-Ira.

From Afar

2006-10-16T11:14:00.000+08:00

I don't want this to sound corny
I'd like for it to be kinda funny
something to tell you how I feel
but also something real
We've been together for a while
you always have a way to make me smile
although you're a million miles away
the mere thought of you completes my day
and so when you see me
just grab me quickly
give me a sweet and gentle kiss
one I am bound to miss
For now while I'm far
when you look up at the stars
remember that I love you
and don't forget that you love me too

07042001 © Gelatin

I wrote this poem for my aunt when she just arrived in Canada. She was breathing down my neck while I was thinking of something to write so I just wrote down whatever she said (but in a better and rhyming way) and this is what came out. She loved it. Her ex-boyfriend did too.

2 People in my Heart

2006-10-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

I thought it was only him for me forever
I promised myself not to fall for another
then you came into my life just like a dart
and struck me right in the bullseye of my heart
so now I'm confused don't know what to do
I can't decide who to choose between him and you

I never thought that I would feel this way
all my life I have dreaded the day
when my heart will fall for two at the same time
and I'd know that not to choose would be a crime
but I love you both it's no lie
losing either one would make me cry
this situation is tearing me apart
why do I have 2 people in my heart

I wish I could rewind my life
so that I don't have to go through so much strife
I would avoid meeting one of you
to prevent from falling in love so true
and I'd be happy with just one man
I would turn back time if only I can

Why did this have to happen
everything was just so sudden
please tell me what to do
coz I'm in love with both of you

04202000 © Gelatin

Felt So Right

2006-10-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

I love you
I don't know what else to say
Coz I long for you more each day
I need you
I want to feel your embrace
And have the chance to touch your face

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Now I call you my own
Things will never be the same

How could I've known
You will hold me close so tenderly
Even though I'm alone
I can feel your arms enfold in me
And that love became mine in just one night
When you held me tight
Oooh.. it felt so right

I feel you
You're always here in my heart
It's where I've kept you since we're far apart

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Can't go on, on my own
Wishin' that you would stay

I was lost and alone
But you showed me the way
Can't go on, on my own
Wishin' that you would stay
Tell me that you would stay...

I just love this song.

Vee-Dub Pa Rin!

2006-10-14T10:27:00.000+08:00

The Annual Volkswagen Club of the Philippines Classic VW Car Show 2006

"Vee-Dub Pa rin!"
Date: Dec 3, 2006 (Sunday)
Time: 10:00AM - onwards
Venue: BNS Parade Grounds, Fort Bonifacio, Makati City
Entrance: Php50.00

*Tickets are now available at your local VW parts & accessory shops or you may purchase them through any updated VWCP member.

*For ticket reservations please contact carshowcommitee@vwcp.org or tickets@vwcp.org

*Tickets can also be purchased at the weekly VWCP gatherings at Burger King, Timog Ave. Q.C. from 8pm-onwards. Just approach any VWCP member present.

*For further inquiries please contact: 0918-9179082 or 0917-8080870

I am so there!

Me and You

2006-10-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

I used to say I'd never go for you
kept telling myself that your love isn't true
I'm in love with someone else is what I'd say
but deep inside I knew I loved you more each day
I saw no proof to confirm that you were real
that's why I didn't want you to know how I feel
but this feeling I have I can't deny
that's why I decided to give "us" a try

Do you only say you love me to please me
why not prove it so I can see
I'm confused as to what's in your mind
your deepest emotions I want to find
I want you to know that my love is real
is this also the way you feel
please tell me that your love is true
and til the end of time will be me and you

I don't know what you did to make me feel this way
but you should know it grows more everyday
I can't put to words what's deep inside me
one thing's for sure you got me smitten completely
if what you claim to feel is all just a lie
admit it now although it would make me cry
please tell me while what I feel I can still control
don't wait til I've given you my heart in whole

My heart broke once
still I gave it a chance
to love once again
hoping this time it will never end

04182000 © Gelatin

Maybe

2006-10-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

I think of you a lot lately
I don't intend to, I just do
I find myself smiling
when I remember something about you
how your smile made me quiver
or how your kiss gave me chills
and mostly how much you loved me

Maybe I want to see you
maybe I long to hear your voice
maybe I hope to feel your touch
maybe I still need you
maybe I really miss you
maybe I haven't stopped loving you

I often dream about you at night
I don't know why, I just do
in my sleep I see a glimpse
of what would have been our future
a five bedroom house and a minivan
our children running around
and us still so much in love

02112003 © Gelatin

Magic

2006-10-11T10:56:00.000+08:00

I've known you forever
that at times I wonder
if we would actually ever
get sick of each other

Then I realize that's not possible
because we are totally unbreakable
I'll be there whenever you call
you'll take care of me through it all

When times for me are rough
you're there to help me stay tough
when you need guidance and sight
I'm there to bring you light

We've had our confrontations
for so many different reasons
still we held on tightly
we're not going to give up easily

So when you feel as if there's no tomorrow
and your life is filled with sorrow
just remember our bond is a classic
our one and only true magic

07042001 © Gelatin

In Love With You

2006-10-11T10:51:00.000+08:00

It feels so good
to be in love with you
It seems so right
to be in love with you
It gives me tingles
to be in love with you
It makes me happy
to be in love with you
It hurts so much
to be in love with you
Though you're far
I'm still in love with you

11102000 © Gelatin

Hungry?

2006-10-10T11:12:00.000+08:00

When I'm bored I read a lot of blogs and I came across this little ditty from here and it seems fun to answer so I'm gonna join the food, food, food bandwagon.

1. Favorite Comfort Food
I want to say something else but nothing is better than the truth...Baci chocolate, which I heard is now available in the Philippines (ask me if you wanna know where), yay for me!

2. Favorite Breakfast Meal
I love fried rice with tuyo and spicy vinegar but I've been watching my weight so I just have 2 slices of sugar free wheat bread and black coffee.

3. Favorite Lunch Meal
Sinigang na Hipon is just too good.

4. Favorite Dinner Meal
Figaro's Grilled Chicken on Focaccia Bread, even if I have to drive an hour to get this.

5. Favorite Dessert
Again, BACI, or Mrs. Field's cookies.

6. Favorite Cake
Red Ribbon triple chocolate cake or mango cake and Mocha Blend's double chocolate cake, yummy!

7. Favorite Pasta
Fettucine Alfredo, back in Canada I used to eat the microwavable ones.

8. Favorite Dish That Others Find Weird
Nido and Sugar on white rice, I don't get to eat this anymore.

9. Favorite Fruits That You Haven't Eaten In A While
Grapes, which reminds me that I gotta buy some.

10. Favorite Junkfood
Nova.

11. Favorite TV Show Related to Food (Cooking show, Travel show with food, etc.)
Anything on the food network is okay with me.

12. Favorite Pastries
Brownies, Crinkles, Pastillas.

13. Favorite Way to Eat Potatoes
French fries! New York fries are the best for me.

14. Favorite Ice Cream
FIC Strawberry.

15. Favorite Alcoholic Drink When You Really Really Really Want to Party
Tequila. Cosmopolitan. Pier One Slammer.

16. Favorite Bar Chow
Chicken lollipops.

17. Favorite Chicken Dish
Figaro's Grilled Chicken, just like I wrote earlier.

18. Favorite Place to Eat with Your Sweetheart or Your Best Friend
Aria with a special someone; and McDonald's with my best friend.

19. Favorite Place to Eat with your Family
At home.

20. Fill in the blanks: I wish I could eat ____ in/at _____ with ______.
I wish I could eat at Summerfields in Toronto, Canada with Dana.

Please Listen to My Heart

2006-10-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

Please listen to my heart
it says I love you very much
this affection is for real
this is what I truly feel

Please listen to my heart
it says I miss you so much
you are there I am here
I wish that you were near

Please listen to my heart
it says I long for your touch
you are the only one who got me smitten
so please take some time and listen

Please listen to my heart

date.forgotten © Gelatin

What If

2006-10-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

I had time to listen to the new Nina album I bought last week. The best song for me is What If, the lyrics I don't relate to at the present but I have been there and the song is just so relaxing. Someday is also a great track ~~Nyoy Volante composed this for her~~. Let me share the lyrics to What If with you.

I often wonder just how can it be
But everytime I think about it
Seems impossible to me
I wanna touch you, call out your name
Would you be my love, would you be my friend
Would you feel the same

What if wishes all came true
And each one had a star
That would keep it shining brightly
However near or far
What if a miracle appeared
And heaven was here for us to see
Oh what if you, were to fall in love with me

I imagine, a picture in my mind
You and me we'll be together
Together for all time
Like in the fairytales
Where everything comes real
Would you take my hand, would you understand
Just how I feel...

It's not impossible
It's not impossible
It happens each day
People find each other
Fall in love with one another
It happens this way
It's not impossible
It's not impossible
I don't believe
If I close my eyes
If I make a wish
You'd be loving me

What if wishes all came true

I love you, goodbye...

2006-10-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

I went away
hoping I could just stay
I didn't want to leave you
doing so would make me blue

Away went I
giving you my last goodbye
I couldn't leave without a hug and a kiss
gestures that I will surely miss

Away I went
my greatest love to you I sent
I couldn't keep my heart from breaking
and my tears just kept on falling

I'm sorry to have to leave you
I love you, goodbye...

date.forgotten © Gelatin

In My Eyes

2006-10-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

In my eyes you will see
exactly what you mean to me
all it expresses is pure sincerity
no traces of pretension nor infidelity

In my eyes you will find
words to be stored in your heart and mind
all it says is love is what I feel
please believe for this is real

In my eyes you will notice
tears to prove that you are missed
tears that say I need you
falling gently saying I love you

date.forgotten © Gelatin

2006-10-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Here on Earth Part Ten

I hope you enjoyed watching the movie as much as I did.

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Here on Earth Part Nine

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Here on Earth Part Eight

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Here on Earth Part Seven

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Here on Earth Part Six

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Here on Earth Part Five

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Here on Earth Part Four

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Here on Earth Part Three

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Here on Earth Part Two

2006-10-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

Here on Earth

Part one of one of my favorite movies of all time. I still cry buckets whenever I see this movie.

If The Feeling is Gone

2006-10-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

If the feeling is gone
please tell me so
coz the truth is all I want to know

If the feeling is gone
don't act so rough
coz when it comes to you I'm not that tough

If the feeling is gone
I am sure to cry
coz there's a part of me that will die

If the feeling is gone
try not to break my heart
coz your cold stare is enough to tear me apart

If the feeling is gone
then I know it's all over
but I know you're someone I'll always remember

09262000 © Gelatin

Someone

2006-10-06T11:55:00.000+08:00

I've always longed for someone to hold
someone to hug me when I am cold
I've always longed for someone to touch
someone to tell me "I love you so much"

I need someone to cherish
someone who will always stay in my memories
I need someone to love truly
someone who will also love me

I've always longed for that special someone
whom I will refer to as my loved one
I need someone who is true
and I'm glad that someone is you

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Do You Know

2006-10-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

Do you know how much I love you
do you know how much I care
Honey I feel so blue
now that I know that we are through

Do you know my heart is bleeding
do you know my tears are falling
Without you I am nothing
my life is not worth a thing

Do you know I always think of you
do you know I always dream of you
Please come back I need you
trust that my love for you is true

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As I looked At The Sky

2006-10-04T10:18:00.000+08:00

As I looked at the sky
I imagined you nearby
your arms pulling me closer
it always made me feel better

As I looked at the sky
I remembered the gleam in your eye
like a star it sparkles brightly
lovingly staring at me

As I looked at the sky
I can't help but cry
I realized how much I miss you
I've come to know how much I love you

Pain was what I felt inside
as I looked at the sky

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Wish

2006-10-03T15:23:00.000+08:00

I wish I'll find someone
who'll take me out of the blue
he'll say that I'm his only one
and that his love for me is true

I wish I'll have a lover
who'll be with me forever
our love he'll always remember
forget me he will never

I wish for somebody
who I know would always stay
I will love him faithfully
until my dying day

Suddenly it dawns upon me
that some wishes do come true
I realize quickly
mine did when I met you

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2006-10-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

I just saw the movie Confessions of a Sociopathic Social Climber starring Jennifer Love Hewitt. I have no comment about it since it didn't blow me away. I have to say I've seen enough of her in her underwear though. I hate being sick - clogged nose, itchy throat and a 39 degree fever - what a hassle. I can't do anything on top of it so I always end up bored. I can't take a long shower or dip in the tub which I love doing because I might get worse. I can't run around and play with Dana because I get dizzy, which I'm also starting to feel now staring at the screen. I'm going to rest now and hope I feel better by tomorrow.

Honey

2006-10-02T13:53:00.000+08:00

Honey I love you
what I feel for you is true
I want to show you in every way
that this grows more each and every day

Honey you make me happy
when everything seems sad and gloomy
after I go I hope you'll love me still
I wish nothing changes with the way you feel

Honey before I leave
my undying love to you I give
open your heart and receive
what you thought you never will achieve

Honey this to you I swear
never will I forget the love that we share
I shall remain faithful and true
just to prove how much I love you

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Sick again...

2006-10-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

I'm sick again, which is so frustrating since I just had the flu 2 weeks ago. I think I'm having a relapse because I didn't give myself time to recuperate from that flu. My bad then. I really would love to stay in front of the pc and type more but my cough is uncontrollably annoying, aaarrrrggghhhh!

Always (the sequel?)

2006-10-01T17:40:00.000+08:00

Honey listen to me
coz I just want you to see
how much I miss you
how much I love you

Since we've been apart
all that was left of me was a broken heart
I think of you at daylight
I dream of you at night

I didn't want to leave you
I never meant to hurt you
all I wanted was to hold you
all I've longed for is to be with you

Until then always keep in mind
this love of ours is hard to find
for now I have to hide what I feel
I know someday time will reveal

Honey always remember
my love for you is here forever
I shall love you through all my days
I promise I will love you always

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Izeeng

2006-09-30T10:08:00.000+08:00

You've been with me through good and bad
stayed with me through happy and sad
You've loved me through all my lies
comforted me whenever you heard my cries
You're right there through laughter and tears
this I will cherish throughout my years
You have loved me unconditionally
and I will love you through eternity
I thank God for giving me you as a bestfriend
I promise to be with you until the end
You were, still are and always will be
the most special friend who's dear to me

07192000 © Gelatin

Always

2006-09-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

You are my dream come true
You took me out of the blue
Your love's what got me going through

You are all my heart wishes for
you're my knight in shining armour
your love's what makes me love you more

Always you and me
forever to eternity
you are what lights my way
I'll love you more everyday
and eventhough we are apart
you are in my heart
Always

Since you went away
I haven't seen the light of day
but knowing you'll always be mine makes it all okay

It was so hard to say goodbye
all I could ever do was cry
but I know that you're mine until the day I die

I know that you're my destiny
I belong to you and you belong to me
Honey one day you will see
you and I are truly meant to be

08192000 © Gelatin

After the storm...

2006-09-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday the island of Luzon had an electricity shutdown due to a typhoon named Milenyo which registered as a signal number 3 storm. My daughter and I sat by the door and watched the strong winds uproot trees and roofs. She kept screaming gleefully, kids are so innocent aren't they? Anyway, I can't stay long, I just had to go online because I need to check my e-mail and some other stuff. Hope everyone in the region is okay...

Poet?

2006-09-27T12:06:00.000+08:00

No...I'm not a poet but there are times when I get the urge to write and I just want to share some of it. So beginning today, I'll post each poem I've written in the past one by one, hopefully I'll be able to find them all in the clutter that is my drawer. Au Revoir...

How does a broken heart fall in love...

2006-09-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

He came into my life
not so long after someone had
just shattered my heart and soul
He entered my mind
when I didn't want him to
made me laugh and comforted me
when I never asked him to
He cared for me and fell for me
when I didn't need him to
And I found myself starting to fall
when I thought it was impossible
After all, how does a broken heart fall in love

I didn't even know him too well
I only knew the intensity of his passion
whenever he looked at me
I only saw his sadness and tears
that was all because of me
I only felt the tenderness of his love
when he held me
All I knew was that
I didn't want to let him in
I tried to stop myself but was unable
I was so sure it wasn't possible
After all, how does a broken heart fall in love

How did something
that needed mending
be able to function like it was whole
How could the feeling start
when it had just been torn apart
and was able to do it's role
Maybe it wasn't working properly
or I just needed to listen more attentively
so my ears I kept wide open
how could that happen
How does a broken heart fall in love

When I closed my eyes
I still saw him
I covered my ears
and still I heard him
He wasn't around
but I could still smell him
I had nothing else to do but comply
there was just no way to deny
My broken heart just fell in love

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Unsure

2006-09-26T19:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure why I started this blog, I don't lack in things to do (since I am a mother to a little miss smarty pants who goes to an exclusive school), I don't really have much to tell either. Hmmmm...~~I guess~~ I need a better outlet to express feelings I can't unleash at home. This is so much better than something destructive which I have been in the past.

So how to start? So, call me Gelatin, obviously one who has two x chromosomes although I sometimes act like I have both x and y. Just turned 23, born and half raised in the Philippines, other half was spent in Canada but currently resides in the Philippines. Ah, I usually get the question why? right about now. It's because it has been my experience that educational institutions in Canada from pre-school to high school aren't up to par with my standards. It may sound like I'm bragging but I am smart and always get excellent grades. Studying in Canada was so ~~damn~~ easy honestly that I just got really bored. Anyway, I want nothing but the best for my daughter so I chose to go back here and have her go to an exclusive school - La Salle since I cant afford the exclusive schools there. Questions about her father will have to be answered later or some other time. Back to me, I'm a virgo pig. I love to sing, read, write, travel and drive! I am friendly, sweet, loving, outgoing, funny, too emotional, too trusting (bordering on gullible) and a ~~procrastinator~~. I'm getting dizzy talking about myself so let me introduce to you my little girl, Dana, a virgo horse. Just turned 4 without me noticing it (she didn't even go through the terrible 2s!) and so naturally intelligent. She was accepted as a Kinder 1 student when she was still 3. If you knew schools here, they're very strict about a child's age but my little teddy bear proved them that she's just too smart for them to reject. She's currently obsessed with the video games Contra and Balloon fight which I play with her.

I have to log off because I have to eat with Dana now, she's been tugging at my hair for the last 5 minutes because she saw the red rice cooker light switch off. Til next time people...